Can I forgive?

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For some of us there are times, circumstances, or events that have taken place in our lives that are devastating, horrible, or just plain unforgivable. At least we think they are unforgivable. We end up walking around, living our lives with animosity, anger, bitterness, or hatred and our hearts are so heavy from the burden that we feel like an over loaded pack mule climbing a mountain. The weight is so heavy at times we can feel like dropping to our knees and staying put.

That’s exactly where we need to be! On our knees before the Lord God Almighty asking Him to forgive us. Why us if we are the victim? “Do not say, “I’ll pay you back for this wrong!” Wait for the Lord, and He will deliver you.”  Prov. 21:22

My previous post, “Once upon a time…No fairy tale here!” is a testimony of just such circumstances I have lived. For many years I was burdened with a heart filled with hurt and anger. What was done to me for a major portion of my life could be considered unforgivable.

After accepting Christ into my life I began learning about forgiveness. “For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.” Matthew 6:14 I wanted my heavenly Father’s forgiveness but that also meant I had to forgive the people who had harmed me. The major one being my earthly father. Ohhhh did I have a problem with that! Forgiving others seemed to be easier and came more quickly but forgiving my father was going to be a long difficult process.

“But love your enemies, do good to them…” Luke 6:35 I took care of my father for many years. I saw that he got to doctors, cleaned his home, I cooked meals and delivered them, and eventually had him in my home for a short time caring for him. I still had not forgiven him and the Lord dealt with me about that.

Once I was able to truly forgive my father and come before the Lord asking His forgiveness it was as though the saddle bags, back packs, and truck loads of hurt and anger that had been my burden for so many years was lifted. For the first time I could look at my father and not despise him. All the glory goes to the Lord for in my humanness forgiveness could not have been given.

No, I don’t have amnesia. I remember what was done and those that have done it. Forgiveness does not mean we forget what was done. It means it doesn’t control us. I have forgiven them all and walk with a free heart. Hurt and anger do not control my life any more. When the enemy, the devil, raises his ugly head, I stomp on it!

Forgiving someone who has cut you off in traffic is much easier than forgiving those who have grievously harmed us. When we are able to forgive it opens our heart and the Lord can work within us and through us. By showing Christ’s love through praying for my father, caring for him and forgiving him, (to his face) my father ended up asking Christ to forgive him and to be his Savior twenty-four hours before he died at eighty-seven years old!

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“This is good, and pleases God our Savior, who wants all men to be saved and to come to the knowledge of truth.” 1 Timothy, 2: 2-3

“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and not this from yourselves, it is the gift of God.” Eph. 2:8

Author Sue Cass – See “And my pen wrote”

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“Do what!?” I thought the odds were against me.

imagesCAS4IFU6  “You have got to be kidding!” was my reply to the Lord when He said He wanted me to finish my basement making it into a guest house.

How exactly I was going to accomplish that feat was beyond me. It takes money, lots of money to convert a full size basement into living quarters with kitchen, bath, bedroom, and living room. He wants a whole house down there!  “Come on, Lord. I can’t afford that!” “Trust Me” was His reply.

Through references I found an amazing contractor who was willing to work with me step by step. When the jack hammer began tearing through the house foundation   imagesCAHIQP7J

I walked around with ear muffs and really began to wonder if I had really heard right. Was it really the Lord telling me to do this?

Floors were being demolished, Cement piled

walls put up, imagesCA6DXUGQ     plumbing run. imagesCA29W8U3

With the constant banging of hammers, jack hammers rattling windows, and saws buzzing I couldn’t help but wonder if my peace and quiet would ever return.

Then I ran out of money. The piggy bank ran dry! imagesCAGG7K95

“Now what, Lord?” I asked. Again His reply was, “Trust Me.”  But everything came to a stand still. With profuse apologies to my contractor I had to wait for a financial miracle.

Ohhhh but God is faithful. When He calls us to do something He is faithful to supply whatever it is we need. I needed money! Lots more money!

Opening my mailbox I flip through the mail and groan. Bills, bills, and more bills. But wait, what’s this? Quickly opening the envelope I find a letter stating a relative that went to be the Lord recently has left me a monetary inheritance.    imagesCAZMFTJ5   Call the contractor!

We’ve been working for months and now when things start coming together and looking like there’s light at the end of the tunnel, the piggy bank runs dry again! No more hammering or saws buzzing. All is quiet in the basement. I’m disheartened, frustrated, and ready to throw in the towel and be content with what has been accomplished so far. I pray, “Lord, I have no idea where the money for this is going to come from. I know You have been providing but….”

It doesn’t sound like much faith and each time I cry out to Him He understands. I’m the type of person that when I start something I want to get it done and rejoice in the end product. This project is truly testing my need to see the end product.

I have gotten where I hate going to the mailbox. I expect bills, bills, and more bills but today I can once again skip and jump. Instead of having to pay Uncle Sam at tax time, which I always seem to have to do, I’ve gotten a large refund. “Trust Me” takes deeper roots and the construction continues.  I’ve bought my paint and as a way of saving money I begin painting.

I’ve chosen my floor covering and with great pride I begin to start installing it myself. working on the floor Slowly and with great pains I have had to trust the Lord with the finances I need. When the piggy bank runs out I look heavenward and wait for the next bank account infusion. He never failed!

Almost one year to the date of the first nail hammered the basement is complete.

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Kitchen, dining room, large pantry, living room, library, bedroom, full bath, laundry room, furnace room with storage. Walking from one room to the next I can hardly believe that this impossible project is done and I’m anxiously awaiting  my first guests. In the natural I saw no way possible to do what the Lord called me to do but, but when the Lord said, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” (Phil. 4:13) He wasn’t kidding!

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“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” Phil. 4:6-7

Author Sue Cass

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Blessings to you 🙂