Written by Robin – Angels by Grace Pub. – April 1997

Molestation, physical and mental abuse, childhood incest. I am a survivor.

From about three years old, maybe earlier, until I was eighteen years old and moved out on my own I was at the hands of some pretty messed up adults.

Throughout my twenties I tried everything from drugs and alcohol to self-inflicted abuse, to take away the deep dark terrorizing pain I felt.

The confusion of being a young adult, not to mention my past, had become almost unbearable. I tried to kill myself several times, but always unsuccessfully.  I did however find I could use food to somewhat soothe my pain. It was something I could control myself and no-one could interfere.

I saw large women who didn’t seem to be “hit on” sexually like the slimmer women did. In my mind I decided that I was going…